KNOWING WHEN TO STEP THROUGH, STEP UP, OR SIT DOWN

I’ve learned that it takes a dose of self-awareness to discover true authenticity. How do we know what feels in alignment to us if we haven’t explored our depths? We need to question and challenge the beliefs that no longer feel good to us, those that have been programmed deep within us, not only by our ancestral DNA, but by those of the societal ‘norms’ enveloping us. Finding authenticity is taking the deep dive into ourselves, facing our shadows and flaws to uncover our empowerment and strength. We can discover the core beauty and truth that combine to form our uniqueness as kind and loving human beings. It is the graceful and elegant essence of our unique individuality that combines with others to turn the smoldering embers back into a healthy passion for change. We will start to understand what it means to find a solution instead of contributing to the problem.

This journey into self-awareness, unbeknownst to me at the time, was unfolding on a subconscious level through my creative process as a painter. The inspiration for my paintings morphed and changed over the course of 25 years. It is a fascinating realization to now understand how the compositional elements in my paintings were a subconscious manifestation of my self-awareness journey.

I started with doors. While they were textured and colorful, usually with some kind of structural element, they were always closed.
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Then the doors started opening.
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After the door phase, I started climbing. Staircases became one of my favorite compositions. They always ascended.
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I then entered my chair phase. I was going full throttle at that point in my life and knew that I really needed a rest.
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I began the deep-dive when my chairs started to include pillows and blankets.
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THE THREAD THAT HOLDS US TOGETHER

I like to think of human beings as singular, colorful, strands of thread. As individuals, we interweave through and around each other, sharing communication, emotion, skill and passion (among many other things) to form thicker strings that connect and entwine into friendships and relationships. As our lives unfold, we seek authenticity in the deepest part of our soul, allowing us to answer the questions of why are we here? what is our purpose? We hope to form even stronger chords that assist us in taking action and finding creative solutions, contributing to the forward growth of humanity as a whole.

This is a painting that I did for my friend Jamie. It was done in trade for some of the expenses incurred on a trip we took to Romania and Prague. (I’ll save that adventure for another post). Jamie and I have weaved in and out of each others’s lives, ever since becoming friends in high school. Presently, one of the threads we share is a passion for sewing.
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Jamie is one of the most creative humans I know. As an example of an individual thread being a component of a thicker string, here is a picture of what she created for her family and friends. She is a Medical Technologist healthcare professional, Supervisor of Microbiology and Molecular Pathology at VA Long Beach Hospital.
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And here is a pic of Jamie at work. There’s no question in my mind, that not only is she a creative thread to a colorful world…….her ponytail is purple, after all….. but she is a contributing, beneficial chord to the lives of our fellow human beings.
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